My terrors in the dark place

Sometimes I live in terror. Oh that dark place. And then again I find that safe spot in my mind.

The horror of rejection by my God haunts my soul like Jack the Ripper, London’s alleyways. The Stalker. My feet run so swiftly astray, that my heart-fears strangle at the thought of death without Jesus.

I am so weak of heart, I cannot walk for long alone until I waver and am flooded with old fears.

What if Jesus is not Lord and Savior of my sin drenched soul? And…
What if I am self-deceived, a fake?
What if I’m not all His, I’ve held-back somewhere?
What if I died and found myself in Hell?
What wicked way is in me that will send my soul to Hell?
What may I have failed to see as sin, and it remains in me? I practice what the Lord condemns. I say it’s just fine, but He says not.
I deceive myself all to Hell and I am damned.
I’m damned all to Hell.
What if tomorrow never comes and today I go to Judgement at His feet and He now loves me not?
What if He puts me in a goat fold where we’re huddled fearful, in terror of this Holy, Holy God, where He tells us all, “…depart from Me— you losers, workers of wickedness, all.”

Some make light of Hell. They joke of how they want to be there – ‘cause all their friends will be there, and Hell Fire Insurance keeps them safe.

They’re not afraid of Hell – ‘cause ‘God is Love’ and so so kind He’ll save us in the end! They’ve been good and loving, kind and friendly! No way He’d cast them into The Fires of Hell!

I live in terror of that dark place where forever I’ll regret my willful sins.

But then, again I find the safe sweet spot in my mind. And Jesus gives me respite, restores His peace and calmness, gives me restfulness, builds me up, and I’m confident again.

I’ve found my safe-in-Jesus place.

FOR MORE:

Sometimes I live in terror of the dark place. The horror of rejection by my God. I waver and am flooded with old fears. What if Jesus is not Lord and Savior of my sin drenched soul? Where is that safe sweet spot?
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Why we fear

Losing my soul

Losing It

James 4:14 ^{Amplified Bible}
Yet you do not know [the least thing] ^[b]about what may happen in your life tomorrow. [What is secure in your life?] You are merely a vapor [like a puff of smoke or a wisp of steam from a cooking pot] that is visible for a little while and then vanishes [into thin air].

Fearfully evil dark things are here

The Evils of End Times Evil Players

Fear of death enslaves you

Fear the Wrath

That Day of Judgement

About The End Times

When life just doesn’t seem fair

Pleasure and bad behaviors we love to fall for

Cognitive dissonance

At your wit’s end

Death and Dying

About Death and Dying

Our Dying and Death

Do not fear – I will help you

Me, When I Die, still in sin

About Nabeel Qureshi… Nabeel was ready when he died

Nabeel Qureshi’s Wife Reflects on God’s Faithfulness Amid Pain: ‘He Will Use This Death to a More Glorious End’

Nabeel Qureshi – was an example of extreme Christian faith
See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nabeel_Qureshi_(author). Would that we all were as committed to Christ – in our walk and in our talk.

Satan the Deceiver Hebrews 2:14-16

Ghosts, Spirits and Demons …What we know from Scripture about …other dimensions… angels, Satan, demons, spirits and ghosts

What The Devil Does

It’s all okay Excerpt:

…It’s okay. It’s okay, right?
But wait: God has spoken
get it right with Him, yah?
Or don’t you care to spend
a day with Him and ever after?

Hell by God

Today is your last day – and Hell is home tonight

What, in Hell, are we to do?

Not afraid of Hell

Oh haunting fear of death – be gone

¹⁵and [that He] might free all those who through [the haunting] fear of death were held in slavery throughout their lives. – Hebrews 2:15

Why worry? Trust God