Have you considered: Maybe your thinking about God was deceived? That would be the most serious of things. Do you value your Eternity enough to look deeply into this? It’s a serious thing – having a mind that has been deceived. Wouldn’t want to stay deceived!
Pray to accept Jesus as-is… all He is, all He said, all He did
It is the most scariest thing on earth ever, the biggest big thing – to think you might miss-out on the great banquet in Heaven. Heaven is for those who have followed Jesus while on earth. Pray to accept Jesus as He really is… all He is, all He said, all He did.
“I actively press on.” How ’bout you?
Do you make it a point in your daily life — to “take hold of” perfection? Or, are you okay with “normal”?