Have you considered: Maybe your thinking about God was deceived? That would be the most serious of things. Do you value your Eternity enough to look deeply into this? It’s a serious thing – having a mind that has been deceived. Wouldn’t want to stay deceived!
Walking the miry clay
We all struggle somehow with something not good – be they sin or “just” bad habits. Many of us, with our feet of clay, continue standing on miry clay – which makes us fall. Slippery place to stand! What’s with that?